Week 16 and everything up to now

I havn't been updating, and I don't know why. I guess mostly because things are the same. There have been little milestones, but the big one is still coming up. Our next scan will be the one where we find out if we're having a boy or a girl.

I caved around two weeks ago and bought some maternity clothes. I just couldn't fit into my work pants anymore. So far, not a fan of these. I constantly feel like my pants are riding really low, because the actual material stops and the elastic begins way lower than I'm used to the waste line of my pants sitting. I'm also still really self-conscious about my bump. It's silly, but I keep trying to hide it with baggy shirts and empire waste lines, because to me I don't look pregnant, I just look fat.

I'm also having a lot of guilt about what I eat/how much I eat. I'm eating reasonably healthy, but I'm constantly reminded that I'm not eating healthy enough. And I'm not getting enough exercise. I just started getting back into it this week. I went to the gym and did a half hour on the elliptical on monday, and today I did about half of a pre-natal yoga video.

This pregnancy also seems kind of unreal somehow. As if I'm not really pregnant, I'm just getting really chubby. I'm paranoid that the next time I see my OB there won't be a heart beat. Idk why. I'm just really afraid of something going wrong. I missed a lot of my prenatal vitamins while I was dealing with the morning sickness, and I'm worried that messed up my baby.

For Christmas we got a lot of stuff for the baby. We got a MamaRoo, which has to be one of the coolest things ever, a Baby Bjorn carrier, a belly cast kit, a little Chicago Bulls track suit with a matching onesie (my brother lives in Chicago), Two Buffalo Bills Bottles (we're Bills fans, Yeah I know feel my pain), and a Lullabelly, which is this speaker band thing for my belly, so I can play music for the baby. I need to put together a play list to play for the baby, since it can hear now according to most information.  We tested it out the other day, the first song we played for the baby was David Byrne's "Strange Overtones". I swear I felt the baby moving along to the music, but I guess it could have been rhythmic gas.

I had a 3 hour Glucose Tolerence Test a while back, because they were worried that my initial blood tests were high, which turned out to be nothing, everything came back normal. So hopefully the 1 hour test will be nothing compared to that.

I have another appointment with my OB on the 11th, and I'm super anxious to hear that heartbeat again, and know everything's OK.